Life Without Mother

Dear Mom,

I’m a sorority girl now! Who’d have thought? This weekend I was inducted into Sigma Phi Lambda this past Friday and spent a whole night with all of my fellow new Lambs. It was a night of fun and fellowship. I love all of the wonderful young women of our Christian sorority and feel like I know so many of them after only a couple of weeks. The anticipation leading up to the Big-Little reveal was an exciting part of it as I  wondered who my Big would be, hoping it would be a certain person and nervous that she wouldn’t want me or the officers would pair me with someone else. Then Friday night my anticipation was relieved to find the person I’d hoped for behind the curtain! We first talked at one of the recruitment week events. She’s vibrant and vivacious and out-going and adventurous and I’m ecstatic to get to know her even better and make wonderful memories with her as we share our sisterhood together.
How I do wish I could send you the few pictures I’ve managed to take—because I get caught up in enjoying the moments rather than wasting good moments in documenting a few—and talk your ear off all night with news of new friends, classes, daily life, and church. And to talk when I get homesick. Yes, I could call Dad, but it’s the same thing as at summer camp where I was homesick for a home that’s not there anymore. “Home is where the heart is.” Well, you had a major part of my heart and you’re in Heaven. Now my heart has been tugged even more towards Heaven. Sometimes I’m just so done with trying to figure out things here on earth and am tired of not understanding. There will never be clear answers will there? At least, not until I can see The Answer for myself.
Only God sustains me, no matter how great the relationships are here on earth. He gave me these relationships to help me through this life but only He can carry me through when I’m completely spent–which happens a lot these days.

Your daughter,
Hannah

(P.S. Below are pictures from this weekend! The top one is my Phambly!! Of course my Big is the one next to me with the matching crazy socks—our Big-Little indicator; the bottom left is of my new member team; and the bottom right is of my prayer group)