Life Without Mother

As most of you have probably noticed, I have not written at all as frequently as last year. A possible reason is that the emotional need to express all of the conflicting and sometimes overwhelming emotions has passed, yet I’d say I’m having about the same amount of emotions, just in different stages and expressions. (Like instead of constant pain, there is joy, etc.)
However perhaps the reason is related. Perhaps it is because there is too much outside of this digital diary the Lord has me doing for His Kingdom. Maybe I could or should take a moment every week to reflect back and share what He’s been doing, but the thing is I tend to do that through conversations face-to-face with friends these days. I’m not wrapped up in loneliness anymore where I feel like the only one experiencing the pain of loss. No, these days I see the same brokenness in others and one of my favorite things is sharing in that brokenness and exulting in how our Lord is working in the midst of brokenness! Especially in light of the current event of this weekend, it’s safe to say that all will agree humanity is not perfect and unexplainable tragedies happen. Praise be to God that in the midst of uncertainty and inconsistency we have a God who is constant and faithful and good through it all. He has allowed us the freedom to make our own choices out of His goodness, and out of our imperfection and choosing to make our own decisions instead of trusting Him—our Creator!—evil is a part of this temporary world. Again I will say, praise be to God, for this is merely a temporary residence for all. The question is: what is your permanent residence after you leave this world?
I have complete confidence that I will live forever with my Creator and Father! And oh, how I look forward to that day! A day that never ends in a place where every tear is wiped away and we are in the presence of the Light and Life.
I didn’t plan on this post being about this subject, but the Spirit moves where He will and who am I to not allow myself to be used by the One who directs my every path?
God has been doing some radical things to my heart the past few months and even now keeps tweaking me. May the day never come when He discontinues His refinement of my heart, my mind, my very soul! Make me more like You, Jesus!

Forever daughter of the King,
Hannah