Life Without Mother

A couple of people have asked me today how Mother’s day was, and while of course I answered them to their face, I was also prompted to write my answer here. So, how was Mother’s Day for you, Hannah?
Mother’s Day was actually not bad. Where many might assume the multiple posts and pictures of my friends with their mothers, and the many quips of “I called my mother today” or “I’m having lunch with my mother and my family today” and other such sayings would make me long for mine or fall into sorrow for what I don’t have, I didn’t. Rather, I rejoiced in the fact that they could still say, “I love you. Thank you for being my wonderful mother and being patient with my messes and always being there to support me and give me advice.” I did not begrudge the fact that they could and I can’t. No, I see or hear those outpourings of love and am filled with joy myself that so many of my friends are taking the time to say those things while they can. To those who hadn’t spoken to their mother’s yet, I encouraged wholeheartedly to do so. We never know how long we get to show our appreciation face to face. That’s why from now on, whenever I see my friends or family I always am sure to say, “I love you” over and over. Not because I want them to think that I’m necessarily worried about the future, but I would never want the regret of not having let them know that just seeing their faces brought joy to my day. I never want them to leave my presence, whether happy or having just had an argument, without letting them know that I love them with all of my heart and then some because the Lord just refills any love I might give. Through Him I am able to love and love and love and I’ll gladly say it. I used to not say “I love you” to friends but now I probably do so much so that they might be uncomfortable by it but I don’t care anymore. The words just slip out from the joy and love in my heart at the sight and presence of them.
So I totally went on a tangent there, but that’s just my heart. I’m not ashamed of it. It has been bought and paid for by my wonderful Jesus who purifies it every day from the sins of yesterday and forever. And now He has filled it overflowing with love that I cannot contain.

Now if only the words that flow so easily on this blog would flow for my research paper that is due tomorrow… Dear Lord, please help!

Forever His,
Hannah:)